Going Nowhere

At a time when I should be sleeping, this idea has finally forced me awake enough to let it out.

So to some people I might seem like I don’t care to go any further (or backwards) in friendships and the sorts, that’s not true. While I am kinda stagnant in the direction, I have my personal reasons:

1. I don’t feel like I’m mature enough to be completely serious right now.
2. To go further requires certain resources I don’t have.
3. I’m enjoying the best part of any relationship anyone can have with people and that’s the friendships.
4. I don’t feel like I have the freedom I need to escape the boundaries I currently find myself trapped in.

The one thing that I never learned in high school was that you can’t dive into anything, unless it’s the deep end of a pool  (I know, shallow joke). But in all seriousness, I wouldn’t trade this moment for the world because I’m not stressing about what to say or how to approach certain situations that I might find uncomfortable. Usually the reason why I feel uncomfortable is because I’m not at the level of maturity or self-confidence that I should be. I’m actually so comfortable with life right now that I can see my future with some people, of course some even more long-term. But anyways, if I pressured myself again to rush back into what has already proved to be a failure, why commit? This is the time to be ourselves and relax before we fully commit to the adult 9-5 life-like our parents.

And because I just watched a documentary about Journey, I shall lamely end the post with this: “Don’t stop believin’, hold on to that feeling”