Archive for April, 2013

“No legacy is as rich as honesty.” – William Shakespeare

As the days dwindle down until the flickering flame of my years in high school flickers its last flick at graduation, I look back at the years since freshman year when I was this scrawny white kid fresh out of middle school trying to hold this monster of an instrument called a marching euphonium. Of course I failed miserably with no upper muscle strength in existence, but that only challenged me to do the crazy thing of trying again, basically the definition of insanity explains it the best; doing the same thing repetitious expecting different results. Then I would have never imagined that I’d be the one to dance in the middle of my senior marching show lifting that same instrument in the air as a main character sharing the spotlight with the dancing queen of guard. Although the only time she seemed like she didn’t hate me was when I failed (which was a lot), it was still an awesome experience for me to help get me out of my comfort zone. The weirdest advice I was ever given as a result was “act more gay” which was hard for me at first, but apparently it just meant I had to loosen up. Made for quite an interesting experience. Anyways….. I haven’t had the best of memories all the time with some I’d be thrilled to take back, but the past is the past and we can’t take it back. Out of all the friends I’ve lost and gain, I wouldn’t change the bulk of things because I believe that it has worked out for the best. Now its time to focus on band banquet, prom (sadly still dateless :/ ), and finally graduation. For now though, I’ll just go with the flow and handle these day-to-day things one at a time.

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For the longest time, I used to think I was as normal as everyone else other than the way I acted or talked, but due to recent events, I have come to question just how “normal” I really am. I am aware that I have a slight speech problem and I can be socially awkward more than others, but that doesn’t mean I can’t succeed. I acknowledge that my family gene pool puts me at a high chance for some form of mental handicap, but I refuse to let that control or define who I am. To anyone who reads this, there’s no need to treat me or anyone else differently. If you’re my friend, stay my friend. If not, then that’s that. Either way, I refuse to be brought down by some label society uses to classify the value of worth someone is to the whole. With this revelation of sorts, I refuse to give up my fight to climb higher on the ladder of success. Lord Alfred Tennyson worded my goals in life the best…

“To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.”

That is from Phil Collins’ “Son of Man” from the Tarzan soundtrack. It’s probably my favorite line from a song, especially since it correlates with my goal of being a teacher. On top of that, Tarzan is also my favorite Disney song both because of the plot and the simplicity of the look to it before everything went all 3D crazy. It showed that there can still be a great movie with 2D character drawings. Anyways, the song is great because it tells how you have the potential for greatness. That alone can be inspiration for those who don’t have self confidence.